Fifth day flop.

Flop it is.
Remember that fasting pledge I made last night? Yeah. That didn't work too well.

When I came from school, it was a Friday, I was tired, and there was a massive steamer of steamed sweetpotato in front of me. I hadn't eaten anything so far, and...yum!!!

I struggled. I really did. I was like "I can just have one can't I? It's still a vegie", and then I was like "No, I made a pledge and I must demonstrate self control". It went on for a while. An hour, to be exact. In the end I gave in. I caved. I ate about 2 medium sweetpotatoes worth of sliced sweetpotatoes. AND I didn't stop there. Oh no. My mum picked up an absoloutely MASSIVE apricoyt danish pastry from the local bakery for my underweight brother, and it was there. Just there. The underweight brother didn't want it-he just left it there! Luckily someone else already ate at least 1/4 of it. I caved. Again. Ate the remainig 3/4. And I'm telling you, this was  BIG pastry. Thin-ish, but BIG.

Sad face. I also had a small apple, one toasted almond and three plain, large doritos. They tasted like taco shells.

Why can't I control myself? I'm actually sooooo disappointed! Whe I got through over half the day, I could feel my stomach shrinking! IT felt so good! Of course I wanted that to last, but apparently I wanted food more. How do you cope with temptations!?! Especially when your family offers you food and encourages you to eat the crappp.

Now I don't want to go out. But I have to. I always have to.

Sigh. Tomorrow will be better, I promise. Let's go all fruit and veg. You can do this Sj...

http://www.myfitnesspal.com/food/diary/GoingFor45

That's my food diary btw...in case you haven't figured out the link yet...