Well, I'm writing this a week late, so I'll just write about my very first week of IF.
Frankly, it seemed far too easy. Sure, I got hunger pangs, but I just drank water and they went away. I even managed to go as low as 800 during the week, simply because I couldn't be bothered preparing food and eating. Strange.
My days were something like this: I got home at 3:30, waited till 4pm, then I filled up on a lot of protein, with a protein shake and two servings of meat every day. One of my favourite, most recurring lunches was a salad with:
-Base: leafy vegetables (e.g 50g 4 leaf mix, spinach, cos, etc)
-Layers: 2 of the following: 1/2 capsicum, 1/2 cucumber, 1 medium zucchini or 1 medium tomato
-Meat: Usually 75g boiled skinless chicken breast or 100g tuna in springwater
-Dressing: Always just the juice of 1/2 lemon, kamquats or lime
-Jewel: 1 walnut, crumbled on top.
Now that I think about it, I might start having this everyday for lunch again, because it really kept my hunger at bay. The salad was followed by 1/2 teaspoon of virgin, organic, unrefined, cold-pressed coconut oil, and this kept me full for a long time. When I next felt like snacking, I would have my protein shake, and that usually kept me full till the end of the night. Oh, and I chewed a lot of gum. A lot.
Anyway, on Saturday, or around then, I weighed myself for the first time in a while. And I was 52.3!!!! That's about 2.2kg lost! I was so insanely happy, because I hadn't seen any number below 53 in a while. Goa One completed! So happy, so happy, so happy! Sure, this may have been due to the low calorie count, but IF sure helped that! I was amazed, mitigated, happy, alleviated. Ecstatic, excited, buoyant, mollified.
And then the weekend came.
Because I had no school, I struggled to fast until 4. I eventually caved, and broke my fast early. On Saturday, I ate slightly over my goal. On Sunday, I tried to compensate, but I only fell deeper into excess calories.
So, even though I tried to start afresh on Monday, I couldn't. Well, I ate well on the actual Monday, I just couldn't compensate for Saturday and Sunday. Silly me, I should have just said, "I'm back on track" then. But no, I HAD to compensate.
On Tuesday, I binged. Almost 2500 calories. I haven't done that in a long time.
Wednesday was actually good-about 850. I thought I was back! |
On Thursday, my just-pregnant teacher decided it would be a good idea to give out jelly babies in light of her pregnancy. Fast? Broken.
By Friday, I was exactly starved, but more upset, confused, unmotivated, exhausted. I bought a curly wurly at school from fundraising and didn't even start my fast.
And when Saturday came, I binged hard. 1800 calories. A day before weigh day! However, I didn't break my fast, because I woke up at 3, but I became addicted to Nutri-grain and couldn't stop. Bowl after bowl...on Sunday, I binged again. 1900 calories...NUTRI-GRAIN, WHY?! I also consumed an unhealthy amount of natural homemade peanut butter during the week...I don't think I'll be making that again any time soon...
I was sure I had ballooned back up to 54.5, but when I weighed on Saturday, I was 52.5-53kg. Somewhat happy? Relief that I didn't gain as much, but still expectantly disappointed in myself.
So, new week.
Monday? Binged. I was determined to fast till 4 and go swimming, but mum met me with taro buns and green-tea-red-bean buns and chocolate scrolls in the car after school. I said no at first, but we got home, and I broke my fast at 3:30pm with tumeric chicken because I had to go swimming. But then, I ate a green-tea-red-bean bun, then the taro bun, then another green-tea-red-bean bun. Then I went to sleep, didn't go swimming, and yeah. AND THE TARO BUN WAS 600 CALORIES.
I can't be bothered trying anymore for today, but tomorrow will be different. I'll fast till 4, drinking 7 cups of water during that time, eat a meal only at lunch-no extras-brush my teeth, chew gum, drink more water, do my homework, take my protein when I need it, then have dinner-and only dinner. Protein will be my only snack, and gum. Who needs food anyway? I'm determined to get to GW2 by the end of this week.
Because this post is excessively wordy, the next posts will feature my horrific realisation that my friend has a skinnier waist than me, my active haul from last weekend, a chicken-cheese-egg recipe, and a green-tea-smoothie <3
I'M SMASHING TOMORROW. FAT GET OFF ME.
