Well, here's to the beginning of control...
Hi there. I'm just another 14 year old girl known as Sarah-Jane, or Sj. I started this blog as a form of motivation and accountability for my fat loss goals, because I'm exceptionally tired of feeling fat and hating everything I see in the mirror. Before I continue to explain why I want to lose fat, I'd like to tell you about my history.
From the age of ten to twelve, I was a junior state swimmer. That meant 8 hours of training a week, including about forty minutes of dryland. And even though I ate like a horse then, I was fitttt. Anyway, I was a serious little competitive kid then, and I took every single thing in life SERIOUSLY. I was one of those kids who just had to give 110% in every single thing. Violin practice, surprise pop quizes, time trials in training...I would beat myself up if I did not over achieve in any one of those tasks. Well, when I turned 13 my mum decided being this serious and anxious about everything was unhealthy (which it was), and took me out of swimming. As you can imagine, when I went from 8 hours of hardcore training to no excersice at all, and continued to eat like a pig, I gradually turned into a self-loathing blob of fat.
I don't think I was actually overweight but I remember so distinctly looking at my thighs while sitting down on the couch and wondering, "since when did they get this big!?"
So when I was about 13 and a half, I downloaded MyFitnessPal while waiting for my mum to pick me up from school, and kept with the concept. It was my first time dieting. Back then, I didn't even know it was dieting. I just knew it as having a calorie allotment and sticking to it. Surprisingly, the weight came off. Looking back at my food diaries, in just 25 days, I lost about 4.5 kg or 10 pounds. I say surprisingly because as a child I witnessed my mum struggle with her weight, constantly going on and off diets, and weight loss seemed to be pretty hard. But I did it. I could hardly believe it. I went from 53 kg to 48.5 kg, and I was happyyy.
It was about then that my severely underweight brother, who could eat as much as he wanted to if he wanted to but doesn't, asked for some Nutella, because they were about 100 calories a tablespoon. So good-intentioned mummy went to good old Coles and bought the 700g jar. That night, I lost control. I wanted chocolate, and I was going to get chocolate. I ate at least half the jar that night, and was too embarrased to record it on MyFitnessPal. The subsequent day, I polished off the jar. I don't remember eating anything but Nutella that day. My stomach was uncomfortably taut, and I think it was stretched to 10 times its size that day.
For the next week or two I decided calorie counting was too hard. I contemplated which diet was best. My biggest bets were the 5:2 diet, which had just come out then, and the clean eating "diet". I tried the 5:2 diet, but thought the fasting days had to be separate, and I failed, because I had a test essay and I got stressed and whatnot. Does that diet actualy work though? Anyone tried it? If you have please tell me! hahaha...
And I tried clean eating, but nothing came off, if anything I put on weight.
In these two weeks I had undone my work of 1200 calories a day or 25 days. I was pretty crushed.
Before the two weeks, I did not believe in cheat days, until Nutella came along. I designated one cheat day a month, but used them all up in a week. Even after that, my failure triggered emotional eating.
After that, I realised I had to get my act together if I was ever going to lose any fat. I deleted my old MyFitnessPal account and started up a new one, because it had worked before (Goingfor45 if you're interested, add me!). I'm still going now, but I needed more motivation and accountability.
SO NOW, IT'S TIME TO TAKE CONTROL AGAIN.
I pledge to lose that fat and get the body of my dreaaaaaaaaams no matter what. I pledge to do it within limits. I accept where I am now (53 kg still!) and make a pledge to CHANGE.
Join me.
And if you want to get to know me more, it's all on here-http://skinnyfitsj.blogspot.com.au/p/random-facts-about-me.html
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